New town, New perspectives. ;)

I haven't given this thing NEARLY enough love in the past...I dunno..8 months.  While many times I've thought..hmm...I should really blog about that.  But friends, I've been busy!  We moved!  And not out of state!  Ashland, KY!  We're loving being so close to Harlow's job and having the kids in such a good school. The move was hard though!
  See, when you're ALL about Jesus, worship and church...moving away from your church is soooo painful.  We love that church...the people...the building is nice..but...it's the church we miss.  I don't know how your perspective of church is...but for us...we NEED it.  We need that support...that group of love to hold us accountable...pick us up when we fall...love us back.  And for us,the best way to describe it is...well..like a drug!  We're in a funk without it!  We look forward to Sundays ALL week.  I'm not saying we don't feed ourselves daily in God's word...we do.... but there's just something about being with your family.  God intended it that way.
  ANYWAY..while looking for a place here we were asking everyone....."SO....ugh...where do you go to church?".  Not in a creepy.."Lemme' ugh tell ya ugh about JESUS!" kind of way...but in a ...HELP US find a new home kind of way.   In a way that only God can, he led us to an amazing church here, Southside Church of the Nazarene.  We're right at home here.
  Which brings us to my current revelation....At revival....again, in a way only God can...he helped me realize i'm not a very good Mom!  I mean...my kids are clean...they're fed....alive...and LOVED!  But I had been missing something huge.  An actual friendship with my kids.  Not as in we dress alike and I wanna be their best friend..rules go out the window kind of way.  NO!  But in a way that there's just not enough conversation.  I ask the daily "How was your day?"'s and the "What did you do?"'s.....but I don't think I was really listening.  And I think my kids knew that.  I wasn't spending my days in the floor playing and helping them grow.  Nope, I was cleaning and cooking and trying to make life easier....breezier.  As in lets just get this day done so I can sleep!  I am always tired....I am always busy.  But why?  Then it hit me.....i'm cleaning and breezing right through their childhood!  In trying to make their life and my life easier I am completely MISSING OUT on their life!  I won't get another chance at tea parties and Barbies!  I won't get another chance at being Robin to my Westons Batman.  And while I KNEW this.  I really did!  I don't think I really thought it applied to me.  I mean..I READ to my kids!  I tuck them in!  I take CARE of them!  I've decided that's just not enough.  You following me?
   I will, from now, let my kids go wherever they want dress as a super hero if they so choose.  I will REALLY go in depth about how their day went!  I will say "YES" to any "Can I help?"...even if it adds an hour to whatever i'm doing.  I will play in the floor for hours with my toddlers!  I will help my kids total wreck my living room to make a "tent".  I no longer want to PROVIDE memories....I want to BE those memories.   I want them to be able to look to me for my counsel when they get older instead of turning to their friends and to ..WORSE..TV.  (TV is a whole other post! :) )